Yesterday, me to went KL Sentral. For work. Site visit, let's put it that way. Since I was in KL, I decided to drop by KLCC, which I have been to for sooooo long.

One of the reasons for wanting to go there was to see Royce Chocolates. What are Royce chocolates? Let me bring you here, and read for yourself. So, anyway, after I accidentally came upon that blog entry, I did a little Google "research" and read up about it. I was drooling after that. And ever since, I knew I have to have a taste. So there was I yesterday, in front of the Royce outlet in Isetan KLCC. I don't know if there is any other outlet in Malaysia. But anyway, when I looked at it, it was sinful. Not to mention tiny... I mean, I didn't expect it to be THAT small, though I already had its specifications (2cm × 3cm). And at RM35? It WAS sinful!!!! But the girl behind the counter said, I need to have it with dry ice so that it wont melt because it's made of soft cream. At even with the dry ice, it will only lasts up to 4 hours. It was lunch time. Still hours till I get home. I want to savor this slowly and at home... hmmm.. so, I made the toughest decision, to forgo buying it.

Today, somehow I regret not buying them... for one thing, never know when I'll be in KLCC again. So, to soothe my aching heart (and appetite), I browse the Internet to have a look at them again... and stumped upon this chocolate lah pulak » Meiji Meltykiss. Can't read japanese? Me, neither. Read this one, instead. Meiji ni macam common brand jugak. So, the probability of finding it may be easier than this Royce thingy. Some says it's the cheaper version of the Royce Nama Chocolates. Will look for it... in the mean time, drooooooollllllllllllllllll!

Today, I had to work in a far away place. I wish I could sleep the dawn through.. but, no... I had to wake up EARLIER than I usually do, 5am... (half an hour je earlier) and rush to the far far away land. I planned to leave the house at 6am, but failed... as usual (due to ineffectiveness of time and self management). Left the house at half past 6.

Unfortunately, I had to prepare some ribbons for this pamphlet and totally forgotten about it. Only remembered at 12 midnight, whch is not much help now is it as the shops are all closed. So, I gambled and went to 7E at 6.30am this morning hoping for a that tiny probability that they would be selling it. Some luck lah kan. Tak ada. BUT, somehow, along the same row, there was another shop opened. Selling newspaper. What have I got to lose... Let's check it out. And to my surprise, it has EVERYTHING I wanted. UHU glue, ribbon (big one, small one).. scissors... aaaahhh!!! Rasa macam heaven sent!!!

By the time I passed through the toll gate, I was 6.45am. Anyway, long story short, I arrived at 7.45am. But I felt the drive was like endless...  though it was only for an hour. But I was just in time to be able to park my car somewhere very close to the place I'm supposed to be on duty. And I don't know, I was the stars shining down maybe, I got a spot not only a very short walk from the site, but under a tree a well. When all was done, though the sun was blazing, my car was still cool. Alhamdullillah.

Everything went fine.. except that my kain was torn. Now am at my friends place, waiting for her to join me for food... tapi dia x habis-habis lagi meeting.

I have so much to write... thoughts are always playing in my mind... but I am so lazy to have them written... why? Entahlah... maybe, I'm just malas.

I don't know about other people... But I always find myself among the last to realize that people around me are actually in a relationship... what am I talking about.. kalau cakap Melayu, mungkin lebih simple.

Kadang-kadang, kita ada kawan-kawan, kenalan di sekeliling kita.  Dan sesama mereka, ada yg berkawan lebih rapat. Ada berkawan baik... lebih daripada apa yang kita jangka. Kita ingat, mereka berdua berkawan, sama macam kita kawan dengan dia... mungkin lebih rapat... (lebih rapat? the only difference is really they share more stuffs between each other than they do with you, or anybody else for that matter... that's it). Tapi kita tak pernah pulak terlintas, mereka bukan lagi berkawan sebenarnya.. tapi mereka berkasih. (berkasih... means, their hearts beat faster sometimes when they talk to each other, and they want to share EVEN MORE things between each other, maybe even go to a level of having their relationship documented).

And unfortunately, (ke fortunately? I should start counting my blessings...) aku selalu jadi antara orang terakhir nak perasan benda-benda ni. Kenapa? Entahlah... mungkin sebab aku expect orang lain semua macam aku. Aku ni suka berkawan dengan ramai orang... ini termasuklah lelaki. Kadang-kadang, aku jadi rapat dengan diorang. Dengan perempuan pon ada gak... tapi kalau dengan perempuan, orang anggap benda ni biasa. Takde siapa perasan, takde siapa pun nak ambik tahu. Anyway, bila rapat dengan lelaki... tak semestinya aku suka kat dia, ada perasaan ke apa-apa. Sometimes, it's just nice, pleasant to have that kind of friends, maybe at that time, it's comfortable... sometimes it's just convenient, too much of favors exchanged ke.. lama-lama rapat..  and sometimes, entahlah... circumstances kot. Takde sape nak kawan dengan korang... terpaksa kawan dengan each other... Atau, asek kerja sama, muka tu je tgk... terapat lak. Tengoklah keadaan.

Tapi macam aku, kalau orang tu baik/rapat dengan aku... mestilah aku prioritize dia dalam hidup aku sehari-harian. Tak kesahlah lelaki ke perempuan ke... kalau pasangan kita, keluarga kita, kita memang buat/bagi macam² untuk/kat dia. Tapi kalau orang lain, takde hubungan keluarga, suami isteri, macam tak kena je kat mata umum. Tambahan buruk kalau it is the opposite sex. Tapi kalau aku, aku buat takde perasaan lebih-lebih, atau macam aku cakap tadi - takde nak berkasih-kasih. Aku baik dengan dia, dia baik dengan aku... aku bagilah yg baik-baik je. Can you catch on so far? (Ini bukan ayat aku... aku pinjam dpd BIG boss  kat organisasi aku ni).

So, kalau aku tgk org lain buat macam aku... selagi aku tak nampak dia peluk-peluk, pegang-pegang tangan ke.. atau senang kata, any physical contact yang mencurigakanlah.. aku anggap diorang pon macam aku... biarlah aku kerap sangat nampak diorang berDUA AJE... (buta sgt ke aku?) Lagi pun, aku nak orang lain pun sangka baik kat aku.... Plus, diorang pun selalu kata takde apa kan...

Tapi rupa-rupanya, orang lain biasanya bukan macam yang aku sangka. Rupa-rupanya, aku je pikir macam tu. Rupa-rupanya, sebab aku selalu assume (making an ASS out of U and ME) takde apa yang  sedang bergolak antara diorang, bila benda depan mata aku pon, aku boleh tak perasan. Rupa-rupanya... kadang-kadang orang yang baik-baik balik dengan aku tu pon, tak pikir macam aku. Rupa-rupanya, kadang-kadang aku mislead orang ke arah yang salah. And rupa-rupanya, kawan-kawan aku pun lebih selesa aku macam tu... supaya aku terus-terusan jadi macam jahil tentang relationship diorang. Hmmm, entahlah (ini mmg favorite phrase aku sejak azali... so don't comment about it).

Kenapa aku beria sangat cerita? Aku marah ke... ye agaknya. Tapi mungkin sebab aku lebih kecewa. Kadang-kadang aku rasa bodoh. Kadang-kadang aku rasa diperbodoh walaupun kawan-kawan aku takde niat pun nak buat macam tu... kadang-kadang, aku tak nak terasa bersalah kalau-kalau orang tak pikir macam aku. Mungkin juga sebab dah selalu sangat terjadi kat aku... aku mengharap kawan-kawan bagilah tau yang sebenarnya kat aku. Aku tak nak terus-terusan jadi oblivious.

hmmm... tak lagi terbuku. hari ni blog aku jadi macam diari lah pulak.

Am I trying to achieve something by saying all these? No, not really. It just makes me feel better to see "my feelings in print".

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Today, went to pwtc. was fun... a break from the hectic office's pile of work. Banyak jalan rather than man the booth... heheh. Missed Deputy Minister's visit.

I had never been to an Umno Assembly. Only ever heard of it. People usually go there for the sale...  things are cheaper.. yelah kot. People from all over Malaysia come to sell and to buy. The sellers will usually try to sell off all the products that they brought with them, that is why at the last day things are usually going off at unbelievable prices! This is what visitors are waiting for.

As for me, it had been a fun experience. I had the chance to "pay a visit" to KL. My dad was here along with some YBs from JB. No, my dad is no perwakilan UMNo.. just a speech writer. He was there to be an observer and on standby. So met him in the morning. My mom came later in the afternoon with my younger sister. They took the commuter from Seremban. So, we had lunch at a kopitiam themed restaurant in the Mall along with my Kak Long and another friend of mine. After that, I took my mom around the booths.

There was a booth, where the company produces chocolates. it was delicious! And they can customize the chocolates too for weddings and such... I was bought on first taste and look. I brought many friends over to promote it... they fell in love too...

Then from time to time, my friend that had lunch with me dropped by and chat. At the end of it all, I met another friend and we had a drink at The Mall.. yes again. Kat mana lagi? It was nice... we talked and talked. And me, as usual laughed and laughed.

Arrived back in Seremban at 9.30pm and somehow at this hour (12.44am) I can't go to sleep. Maybe because I had a cup of nescafe petang tadi at 5pm...

Well that's all folks.

Today... today I had to be on duty somewhere else... not in the office, but in KL. It was fun. I miss KL in a way... I used to work for a year in KL, did my practical training there too. (Just in case, I'm talking about KL the central... not some off site KL like Hartamas, Bukit Kiara or TTDI.)

The short LRT trip brought back so many memories. In the morning (usually) everybody is rushing... hmm. So unlike the slow pace Putrajaya.

Everything comes in differents shapes and forms... People are dressed not just colorful outfit, but different types... Jeans and t-shirt, powersuits, slacks and skirts, dresses and pants. So unlike the usual same old baju kurung and kebayas.

Their facial expressions are interesting to look at too.... and then the countless food stalls, especially at Masjid Jamek LRT area. A variety to choose from! So unlike same old food at Besta.

In a way, I miss all these... I love KL in the sense of its varieties. You have so much to choose from... places to dine, places to shop, people to meet... Do I want to work in KL again? Maybe... but I have to admit that the thought of jam and flood... crowded places... do dither me...

Oh! KL... you distract me too much from telling the event of today...

Maybe I'll save that for another day.... tomorrow?

Saturday was so tiring, but fun. The four of us (me, hubby and 2 kids) attended 5 open houses and a wedding. Mmg raya sakan rasanye. The journey started at 11.15 am, from Seremban and ended at 1.00 am back in Seremban. We made stops at Bangi (2 places), Kajang, USJ (Subang), Ulu Kelang and Sg Buloh, in that order. Looking back, I think we should have made a detour to Ulu Kelang first then USJ and Sg Buloh. The journey to Sg Buloh was the longest, I think. The MRR2 bridge to Sg. Buloh was closed so we had to use this alternative route that goes through Kepong... and I can't believe the jam.. at 10.40pm, mind you. I felt like we would never get to Sg Buloh.

Sg Buloh was my brother in law's place. And throughout the journey there, all I could think of was a bath. As soon as we arrived, I was the first to rush to the bathroom. So refreshing. Good thing both my kids agreed to a bath as well... at least they can sleep clean and fresh throughout the night. And, come to think of it, they were quite well-behaved during the journey... only when we got to the houses-lah kan they were running and jumping and shouting and screaming all over.

Anyway, before we left Sg Buloh, I downed 2½ cups of nescafe, so that I can stay awake when hubby is driving. And a good thing too because he was too sleepy to drive actually. So I took over at Nilai. Itu pun, after I persuaded him to let me drive. In truth, he was afraid that the kids might wake up while I was driving at they would start screaming for mummy and he can't handle it. As it always happen...

On Sunday, I lazed like that won't come another Sunday... It was literally a lazy sunday. I ignored the bags from yesterday's trip that need to be sorted out... I ignored my kids toys that was all over the house. For breakfast, what did I feed them ya... did I even feed the kids...?  I spent the whole morning on YouTube.com watching reruns of the tv show, Realiti. And then lunch we had an invitation from my friend from school, 2 blocks away. So didn't have to cook. Yeay... made sure the two rascals were well fed there. Balik, both the kids were tired... from their usual activties of running, jumping, screaming and shouting... they blanked out in an instance... of course I joined them.. heheh... 3 hours straight!!! Hahaha...

Actually 2 friends were supposed to come but it seems both of them have to work outstation, leaving on Sunday. Weeee for me. After the loooonnng nap, bangun² je, lapar. Cooked cokodok... and roti telur. Sorfina loved it. Afnan wanted nasi jugak... so did he his father. So masak lah jugak at 9pm. Itu pon sebab I was watching "The Lake House", so made them wait till it was over... lazy sunday, kan... And the whole weekend ended with the final episode of Realiti followed by The Apprentice.

The End....

I know it can be frustrating to open a blog and finding it had not been updated since the last 10 times you opened it. And I know that I know I am one of those people... too lazy to update.

But... we have to go back to "why one blogs?" As for me... most of the time I blog when I have something to let out, but no one to let it out to. When I'm too angry.. too upset... too unsatisfied... too sad... most of the times. And some of the time I write when I'm happy. But still... it doesn't really matter because my audience is small. If they are disappointed (IF ANY), it won't be that many. Am I saying that you're not important? No... I really should take that back.

Well... in truth I don't have much to write. That's the real reason for not updating. I'm only speaking for myself, mind you. So if you did open this 2,3 times only to find old, stale entries... please forgive me.

All I know is that I want you so
Life goes on but I can feel it when you're gone
Sun won't shine, until I look in your eyes
In a world without your love
Moon won't rise, you know I'll never survive
In a world without your love....

No.. this is not a poem written by me... But part of the chorus from a song sang by Ella. Not Ella Fitzgerald... but our own Ella, Malaysian Queen of Rock. Bet a lot of people didn't know that, huh? Well, this song came out around the same time as "Standing in the Eyes of the World" if I'm not mistaken. I loved it so much then that I played every day... and everytime I was on duty for the Deejay's Club. And the other day, while busy downloading raya songs, I bumped into it. Can hardly believe that there is another person that would listen to it... Anyway, the songs brings back memories of school days.... not that the song is related to any event, but you know how songs remind you of time periods... and the memories and feelings around that time... If you wanna listen, download it here.

It doesn't matter that nobody ever visit

It doesn't matter that only me read all these bit

It's my life and I like to reflect

Even though it doesnt give anyone any effect

So what if the whole world can read but never does

So what if nothing inside here ever create a buzz

I would still write and type, ramble and rant

Because I like, and I can.

Not to mention I'm hungry and nobody else wants to listen to me....

I know it's ramadan, but I'm still hungry with no energy.. to continue this journey